I've been battling a dilemma for the last 2 days and I've realized, the reason the decision is so difficult to make, is that the two sides of me are in conflict.
My favorite band ever, Einsturzende Neubauten, is playing a show in Australia in February. I've loved them since I first discovered them when I was 14 years old. I own all their records. I supported them financially when they decided to go out and make music without the support of a record label. I even went to Berlin in 2003 to go to a party in their honor. I've hung out in the studio with them. I've eaten dinner with them. I've drunk cocktails with them.
But I've never seen them play live.
And they haven't played in the Southern Hemisphere since 1991. So this gig in Melbourne is probably my one and only chance to ever see them play live.
So on the one hand, I REALLY want to go. I know if I don't, I'll regret it, like I've regretted not going to so many other things in my life.
But the tickets aren't cheap. And I'll have to fly to Melbourne, which is also expensive. And my passport expired last year, so I'll have to pay to get a new one before I go. Not to mention my financial situation isn't that great right now. I have a big pile of bills staring at me and the rates are due in two weeks, plus both my partner and my son have birthdays coming up in the next few weeks.
Hence my dilemma.
The teen me part of my brain says "just go for it. You want to go? You go." But the responsible, adult part of me is screaming warnings in my ear. "You can't afford it. You're already in debt up to your eyeballs. You'll wind up putting your kids out on the street."
What would you do????